small medium at large

[throwabookatit]

you know there are only like five girls here how fucked up is that???

Comments

[itwasfeyt]

[Shouldn't she?]

I'm... [The wind seems to deflate from her sails, leaving her looking twice as haggard.]

Honestly I've been trying to find someone to talk to that's real for a change.

[throwabookatit]

[ ...Ah. ]

O-oh. ...They've been...particularly bad for you, haven't they? Alright. Here, let's...get some tea, yeah?

[itwasfeyt]

[A slow nod. Not much can get Maya down like the things she's been seeing for the past while.]

...Tea sounds good. Please.

[You lead, Rebecca, she'll follow.]

[throwabookatit]

Do you have any preferences? It's all pretty sub-par anyway, but at least we can get you something you like.

[ Come on. Let's go to the kitchenette. ]

[itwasfeyt]

Anything with honey in it? [She'll try not to be picky, especially with the sub-par stuff here.

To the kitchen we'll go!]

Maybe jade?

[throwabookatit]

One less-than-great cuppa, coming right up.

[ They're going to the little area in the common room, should at least be...well, not-that-noisy. After a few moments, waiting for the water to boil, she figures it'd be better to not just sit in silence. ]

Do you...want to talk about it? What you've been seeing? I understand if not.

[itwasfeyt]

[She can't wait...!]

... [Where to even begin? The more she thinks about it, the worse she feels for coming to Rebecca just to talk about the problems she's been going through, even though Rebecca probably has her own.

Is that right?]

I've been seeing... people, lots of people from the cases I went on with Nick.

[throwabookatit]

Nick is your...friend? Partner? ...When you were...doing lawyer work?

[ It still baffles her. So much. But, things aren't working the same for many people, here. ]

I imagine, with your work...that can get a little uncomfortable, sometimes.

[itwasfeyt]

Yeah. [Her expression lightens at the thought of him.] He's my friend, partner, and my sister's former employee. He was training under her, back before she... died. I can't remember if I told you, but... I was framed for her murder.

[And it still hurts. She wouldn't show these cracks normally.]

...But Nick came to help me. We figured it out together, and he proved my innocence!

[throwabookatit]

[ A hand goes to Rebecca's mouth in shock. ]

N- no... No, you hadn't told me. Maya, I'm... I'm so sorry. That must've been awful.

[itwasfeyt]

Yeah, and that was just the first time. [She sighs. There's more to this story, sorry Rebecca.]

It was all this stupid guy's fault. Redd White. Mia found out some of the illegal things he was doing and she invited me to her office so I could hang onto some of her evidence. But... when I got there...

[throwabookatit]

...She was...

[ Ah. Oh, that sounds...upsettingly familiar. ]

...Maya, I- you should never have had to go through something that horrible. [ She reaches over to grip Maya's shoulder. ] I... Are you...seeing her?

[itwasfeyt]

[The shoulder touch earns Maya looking into Rebecca's eyes.]

I know, I... [She nods, slowly, sadly.] Yes, I am. Redd White, too. And Nick, and everyone else.

[Her days lately have been... crowded.]

[throwabookatit]

I... I know, that must be...unbearable, at some points. Upsetting, at all. [ Her other hand finds the other shoulder, a firm yet gentle grasp. ] Is... Is there anything I can do? Anything...more?

[itwasfeyt]

...A hug?

[She doesn't get many of those anymore.]

[throwabookatit]

[ She doesn't have to say another word. Rebecca pulls her forward into her embrace, softly running her hand down the back of Maya's head. ]

[itwasfeyt]

[She hasn't had a hug like this since Mia was alive.

A flood of feelings come rushing into her that she's not entirely sure how to describe, but it all leads to her wrapping her arms around Rebecca and... letting out a sob against her. Emotions she didn't want to think about anymore were bubbling back to the surface. She hated it, showing how sad or tired she was. If everyone could see her as just "happy Maya Fey" that would be so much easier.

Instead... she's this, a girl who's lost so much, and keeps seeing it over and over again.

This school sucks.]

[throwabookatit]

[ Soft, soothing hushing, as Rebecca pets Maya's hair and holds her. ]

It's alright, dear. Cry as much as you need. I'll stay right with you, 'til you tell me otherwise.

[itwasfeyt]

[She sniffles almost endlessly, on account of trying to tell Rebecca that things are Okay when they're clearly not.

Eventually, she does manage to calm herself enough.]

....T-thank you.

[throwabookatit]

[ She doesn't let Maya go yet, nor does she pull away. Not until Maya's made an indication that she'd like that. ]

You're welcome, it's no trouble at all. If you...have problems, with this sort of thing, you know... I'm here for you, okay?

[itwasfeyt]

[There's a beat, and Maya shifts slightly against Rebecca. An attempt at a nod, which isn't terribly easy in her current position.]

Okay.

[Another beat, a few more sniffles. She's gotten most of this out of her system by now]

...Hey, Rebecca? Have you been seeing things too?

[throwabookatit]

[ Ha... There's no point in lying, is there? Especially when, as the week goes on...they seem to keep getting worse. ]

...Yes. Yes, I have. I've, um... I've been seeing my friends, from back home.

[ Her friends, and a few people she...doesn't recognize, entirely. ]

[itwasfeyt]

[Oh.... Maya nods, understandingly.]

Me too. There's... a lot of people I know by now. Some of them are nice. The others... aren't.

[throwabookatit]

...It was rough. [ She might as well... She might as well. ] They were all...in a state of mourning, or...or well. Isabella.

[ The person she'd asked Maya to channel. ]

[itwasfeyt]

[She mirrors Rebecca's expression.]

Whenever I saw Mia, she was smiling at me... like she was happy to see me again, but I couldn't see her all the time.

[She would always disappear. Never staying.]