[How often had she lived with the public belief that her entire profession, the thing she was born into and destined to become the master of, was a lie? The thought of others here believing that was a crushing one....

Unbeknownst to Rebecca, of course. All of these feels crash together inside Maya, hiding under the desperate desire to appear like nothing is wrong, and her life isn't constantly falling apart around her.]

No... I wanted to give it a try. Even if it didn't work... even if I've tried it before, I was just hoping that maybe if I really put my mind to it... I could do something nice for you.