throwabookatit | i don't know enough about p5 to make a confidants joke

[ It's sometime when the gathering is winding down. When she can slow from making food, checking in on everyone, when her thoughts can catch up to her.

Rebecca's finding herself exhausted by it all. On a trip back to the kitchen, she just slows as she reaches the space between the dormitories and the main facilities. It's almost deceptive, how peaceful the night seems. But it's impossible to forget what's happened here, at least for her. The night sky looks down on her.

Not for the first time, she wishes for the overcast atmosphere of Luxbourne. When the sky's clear...it always make it harder to hope for what's just out of sight. ]

[ If coffee were alcohol, Akira would be drunk by now. As it is, he's a little twitchy, and running on fumes instead, and staring out the window, trying to wind down a bit before trying to get some of that dreaded sleep in.

...

Even if it's dark, it's kinda hard to miss that reddish-pink hair of Rebecca's, even from a distance. Straining up, Akira forces the window open and leans out of it enough to see, and be seen. ]

Hey! Sensei--!

[ To hear someone that enthusiastic tonight?! Rebecca definitely starts a little as she turns, looking straight in front of her, then...up? ]

You... A-Akira, stay inside, what are you doing?!

[ Don't fall... She's too busy...worrying... ]

[ Sorry Becca, he’s already decided that taking the stairs is for squares, and sure is scrambling out the window and climbing down the drain pipe like some kind of Spiderman wannabe. Although he is making it look kinda easy, so maybe it’s more like a cat burglar.

HMMM.

He hits the ground with a light thump, jumping the last foot or two down to the ground, and brushing away any dirt or dust from his exploits off his clothes. ]

Ah.

Well, I’m here now. [ What’s listening to your elders? Is it fun? ] I wanted to make sure you weren’t getting too wrapped up in your own thoughts.

Akira, d-don't y-you--!!

[ She's sputtering and fussing, the instant he's out there. Yes, it looks simple to him, but she's a nervous mess, rushing over and trying to look over, to see if he's got any injuries. The statement's a bit lost on her. ]

Ohhh, you- you could've gotten hurt, you bampot, what did you think you were...?! Don't you know how high up that is?!

It’s not that high... [ Ok so maybe it’s high but he’s climbed higher. ]

Hey. [ After a second, he tentatively reaches forward and rests his hands on her shoulders. ] I’m fine. Just... take a deep breath, okay? I’ve done that sort of thing plenty of times, I wouldn’t fall doing something like that.

You still could've fallen, and--

[ It's worth noting. They're standing just near the courtyard. ]

Just- d-don't make me worry more than I already do.

I wouldn't have fallen.

[ It's said very firmly. But not... rudely? He's taking what she said on board though. ]

I won't do it again though. I didn't mean to scare you. I just... wanted to get down here before your wandered off.

[ Rebecca remains tense for a few taut moments, but then turns away, pressing a hand to her brow forcefully and murmuring: ] Ugh, I'm a mess.

[ Hadn't Hank said, they didn't have to keep composed all the time? They were allowed to be messes, but-- but Hank was gone now. Rebecca was left as the one for all of them to look to, and she... ]

I. I just need a moment. Sorry.

[ ... Hm. Something very important needs to be said, he thinks. And the best part is I started typing the bit below before re-reading the comment and registering the part about Hank. ]

It's okay to be a mess, you know. I don't think it's good to keep yourself stoic just because you think you have to.

[ When character thoughts and internal narration match up without ya even meaning it. ]

But here... [ She takes a few seconds and lets her jaw unclench. ] Here I am again...being lectured by a teenager. If anyone back home could see me now...

[ Bless. ]

I think... you put a bit too much stock in our ages and how you think you should be around us, you know. Just because I'm younger than you doesn't meant I can't help you, or handle myself when I need to.

[ ... ]

We're all on the same ground here, I think. It just took some adjusting to it.

Edited 2018-09-18 21:27 (UTC)

But...

[ She seems at a loss for words. ]

Well- yes, you're a...a capable young man, but- I'm... It's my job, my...everything, to be someone...someone the lot of you can depend on.

Does that job make it impossible for you to accept help from other people?

...No.

[ She sighs in resignation. ]

Some habits are, however...hard to break. I'm not one who often spends time, outside work, with people of a different age group. [ ... ] Or...with many people, to begin with.

[ She's got her close friends. ...Well, she had her close friends. A respected professor or two. ]

Well... you have us here, right?

[ It's... yeah. It's tough to trust people, but he's had a fair bit of luck from opening up to friends back home. Even here, he's trusting people and finding friends even with everything that keeps happening around them.

It's what keeps him going. It's what kept him going back home. ]

We're not about to just abandon you when you're feeling lost, or sad, or anything. If you want us to rely on you, you've got to lean on us as well. That's how relationships work - all give or all take isn't the way to go about it.

[ What greets him is a tired...almost-smile. So much weighs on her right now, but his words are appreciated. ]

I know. Really... Having to go through this alone, it probably would've... [ ... ] You're really one of the smartest boys I've ever met, you know. I wish you had been my student.

I'm just stubborn. And... well. I told you a bit about stuff back home. Sometimes you just have to keep going, and appreciate the people around you who do want to help you.

[ ...

...

yeah. This feels important. ]

So, I'm sorry for being difficult early on. [ And his voice is a little firm, and a little cold. ] I would've been a lot happier having you as a teacher, rather than one of the ones I dealt with.

[ She fixes him with a concerned look. ]

I thought...you were probably speaking from experience. But I didn't want to pry.

If you wanted to know, I don't mind telling you.

[ He shrugs. ]

We made him face up to the things he did.

[ She looks startled, but...he did say, didn't he? ]

What...sort of things...?

... He was famous, or something? Won a medal at the Olympics, so the headteacher saw him as bringing prestige to the school. He got away with anything and everything.

[ He shrugs, but it's short, and angry. ]

He hated me, so he told me he was going to twist things to the council to get me expelled. He broke my best friend's leg in the past, and claimed it was self defence because my friend had a "reputation" for being rebellious. The volleyball team was always beat up, but it was explained away as "training". And he had his sights set on my friend Ann. [ It's not clearly stated, but it's probably clear what he means. ]

When she refused to cave to him pressuring her, he went after her best friend instead. But he was pissed because Ann kept turning him down, so...

[ Yeah. ]

No one could touch him, so we found a way to drag him off his pedestal and make him confess everything he'd done to the world, especially after he made it so personal. He deserves to live with that weight on his shoulders for the rest of life.

Edited (akira's "fried" ryuji) 2018-09-20 21:25 (UTC)

[ The more Akira says, the more rage rises in her. Her jaw locks and by the time he's done, she- well.

The last time he would've seen her this mad probably would've been when 2-D confessed to murdering Maya. ]

That...

That bawheid, that absolutely disgusting man. No-- no wonder...you had such a bad impression of us.

He was the worst. The other teachers just... didn't care? I don't know if they knew, and were "advised" not to do anything but they didn't seem to care much in general.

Problem students were just an annoyance, after all.

[ ... ]

One of them was alright though. She had her own problems, and her heart was in the right place once you got to it.

I would've burned down the whole damn administration.

[ She shakes her head, more words clearly on her tongue but held back, just barely. ]

That would've just got you into trouble, and set a bad example, sensei.

N-not...literally...! I'm just- I'm just saying a group that'd let something like that just...just go on under their noses, it doesn't sound like there's anything worth salvaging.

[ Rebecca, you're cute when you're flustered. Bless. ]

They had to face up to all the public scrutiny, don't worry. How he got away with it for so long, why did no one ask any questions about what was going on...

It was satisfying.

[ No she's not?? Excuse?? ]

...I hope it ruins them. No one- not a single student should experience something like...like that.

[ She is. Fight me!! ]

There are lots of people who experience things they shouldn't. Not all of them see justice, but... when it does happen it's worth it.

[ He'd like to see it happen here too. ]

...Yes. Yes, I- I think we can agree there, too.

[ ... ]

I think I did Hank a disservice when we first woke up here. Authority in general... hasn't really done much to prove themselves worth what they demand from you.

[ It's not something he'd been able to say outright to him, before everything happened. ]

You turned out to be not a lot like the sort of teacher I was expecting. And he wasn't what I expected from a police officer.

[ Oh. Oh, that... ]

...If that's all you had to compare to before...then of course. I said it...to Mister Young, to Hale, to all of them. It's not the student's job, to give you respect. It's yours, as a teacher, to give them a reason to respect you.

That's a good message in general. If you have to demand respect, you probably don't deserve it.

It's what all people in a position of authority should acknowledge. ...It's what...Hank believed, I would gather.

... Yeah.

He was a good guy. That was clear enough. [ He just... was too cautious. ]

i don't know enough about p5 to make a confidants joke

WEEK 5

Saturday, night

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general kamoshida warning - physical/sexual assault discussion.

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