His optimism is refreshing. He reminds me of Zachary in that way. Tall, soft-spoken, and unimaginably kind.
He's got a lovely philosophy on entertainment. That's I think what reminds me of Zach most.
He drags his feet like Zachary too, though! He's far too complacent. This whole time he hasn't mentioned a thing about being in a coma before this! I've got to teach him to stand up for himself. Why, he's older than me, he should have his head on right.
The Gorillaz is the name of his band. I've heard some of their things on the radio.
This weekend he was put on trial as a suspect. He didn't do it, of course, but some made a to-do about it. Of course I had to defend him. He doesn't seem to know how to defend himself. I feel bad for what I said to Henry, though. I hadn't realized he'd lost his friend.
He told me some of about his friends, this week. I'm sorry I couldn't do the same. All the bloody hallucinations just made me so hyperfocused. It was nice to get out of my own head for awhile. We had a good chat.

Also he called me pretty, which was strange? Get it together, Becca. Despite all the new experiences here, that is one to keep shelved. He's also not quite my type? Oh I am not reasoning this out here. This is ridiculous!

The hallucinations were worse today. That woman, everywhere, hissing at me. Stuart found me trying to find something to sleep with. I've been having such terrible nightmares. But he tried to help sing away it, to distract me and
Well it kind of worked. He's seeing his own ghosts, quite literally. A little girl he knew. It's dreadful.
All of this is dreadful. I don't know what we're going to do anymore.
I was distracted when he came for tea, Sunday. Too many things to think about. Between yesterday and my dreams.
But it was a lovely chat. Even if I had to side-step a few things.

Everything's different now. This week I couldn't write at all and he couldn't hear
That barely matters but it does, and he got Ashton's damn parka which was all covered in blood, what else am I not remembering, how could I forget if he's dead with all of this shite that I can't even

He killed Maya. Horribly. He killed an innocent girl and I defended him and I feel sick with myself. One of the reasons was the girl in his band. One of the reasons was he wanted to talk with me again.
Positively sick.
I don't know how I could be so blind.