good student "shirou"

[throwabookatit]

angra mainyu, more like My New Son

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[throwabookatit]

[ She huffs, trying to appear more composed. ]

Well, whatever we were or weren't or...anything like that, it doesn't quite matter now, does it? Can't much do anything about it. Considering.

[swordsinternally]

I guess that's true. But I got to see something amusing, so I think I benefit from that.

[throwabookatit]

...That's remarkably rude to say to someone, you know.

[swordsinternally]

I know that.

[throwabookatit]

Then why say it in the first place?

[ Her expression darkens. ]

I'm having a hard enough time with this place, without people teasing me about the people I've lost.

[swordsinternally]

Because... sometimes you've got to lighten the mood.

[throwabookatit]

Well, it's not very light for me right now, whatever anyone says.

[ She doesn't even mean to, her hand just...drifts to the drill at her neck. ]

I'm trying to just...get through all of this, alright? Whether it's amusing for you or not...it's not for me. It's just another regret.

[swordsinternally]

... Sorry.

[ For a moment, he sounds awfully sincere, but he lets out a breath. ]

I don't think you should regret it, though. Any of those feelings you might have had.

[throwabookatit]

...It's not the feelings I regret having.

It's how... I hadn't realized I could do anything about them, or that I should.

[ She shakes her head lightly. ]

I've...a lot on my mind, at the moment. I suppose you've just caught me at a bad time.

[swordsinternally]

That's just how humans are. A lot of the time, you might not realize something until it's too late. You can talk about regretting things that could have been done or should have, but we can't change the past. And even if it were possible, the outcome of the changed past might potentially be worse than the present.

I'd know. I've seen multiple outcomes of a single person's life.

[ He says that rather casually with a shrug of his shoulders. ]

It's fine. A lot's... happened, after all.

[throwabookatit]

...You always sound so detached when you do that. Talk so...generally, about humanity.

[ Somehow? She's not surprised. Of course he's seen multiple outcomes of a person's life. Naturally. She's heard of string theory, after all. ]

[swordsinternally]

I'm not human, after all.

[ He shrugs his shoulders, almost indifferent for a moment. ] Or, well, maybe it's just a little difficult. To express emotions that are my own. But... I don't hate humanity; it's actually the opposite for me.

[throwabookatit]

Hmm.

[ She's thoughtful. And a little distant? ]

You love humanity, but it's hard to express it. Is that it?

[swordsinternally]

Something like that.